Today was a tough day here at our house. Kelly finished packing the car this afternoon and headed out to Virginia. He is going to be the Chief Petty Officer in charge of the 2M school or something like that. It was tough, I know we all kept hoping for a "stay" or reprieve or something like that. Afterall, he doesn't want to go and the guy who is here didn't want to come here. But, the military doesn't always make sense. And in the end, we were too close to his retirement check to just walk away from it.
I keep thinking that this is the roughest thing I have ever had to go through, but then I remember what he and I have been through and I know it isn't. It still SUCKS though. All I ever wanted was a baby. A child to complete our family. And now, once we have that, Kelly has to leave. I think some people think it isn't as bad since we chose to be apart. Afterall, I could have gone with him. We could have packed up ALL our things, our lives, jobs, pets, and started over yet again. (It would have been my 6th interstate move and Kelly's 6th interstate move as well. Not counting all the smaller moves we made within the states once we got there.) But choosing this doesn't make it easier. He is still gone. He can't help with Bean, take out the trash, eat dinner with us, or even tuck me in at night. Because he is simply not here. He wishes he was here, and so do I, but he isn't. And he won't be here for most of the next three years. Even if he comes back to Crane, that job involves travel. I keep thinking, at least it isn't Iraq or Afghanistan. It's no more dangerous in Virginia than here. And that helps, but only a little. I miss him. He is my best friend as well as my husband and not having him here is like missing my left arm. We love you, Daddy. Come back soon.
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Looks like you guys have been having a great and busy summer. Jenna is just adoreable! I am so sorry for you and Kelly having to be apart, I know there's nothing to say to make it any easier and I hate that. The first thing that comes to my mind is lean on him, him being the good Lord. This separation from your husband, your best friend, the father of your child, will be hard and difficult to understand why is has to be this way, but trust in the Lord and look to him for strength. God always has a plan look at these next 3 years as an opportunity to have more time between you and God! Don't get me wrong easier said than done, my prayers will be with you because I too would have a very difficult time. I'm so glad I will still be working with you and know I'm always here no matter what. Love ya and looking forward to seeing you soon, (even though I'm not looking forward to working, but oh well) Brooke
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